So I sometimes (always) find it hard to admit/talk about anything I consider as weakness in character.
Over the years of my Arakan journey there has been more than once where I didn't want to go to training, I could barely convince myself to get out of bed. One time in particular being after the 6 or so months I had off for injuries.
If it wasn't for the understanding and going above and beyond to push me to not give up from , I know I wouldn't still be training. I also wouldn't have been in a very good place within myself. There was a light at the of that tunnel and after what seemed like forever once again I couldn't get enough and training was the highlights of my weeks.
The last few weeks have been difficult and more often than not im too proud to ask for help. As much as I hate to say it, I've needed it. The support and tough love or compassion depending when its from Anthony Forrester and Corey Davies (* who only after having me in group for literally weeks, scares me how much they actually care for each single student) truthfully it's given me something non self destructive to focus on and not completely, for lack of better wording, lose my mind.
I may never be able to admit l how much I needed it, So: while I have the courage I just wanted to say Ant, Corey, any of my other instructors, the guys I train with , Rob and Arakan Martial Arts. Thanks. Specifically Anthony. Although with a lesson with him this avo im gonna regret it. It has helped me more than you /could all possibly know. I am so grateful.